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Re engraving the Spring CH 88

Author:Lu Category:urban Update time:2023-01-03 02:37:39

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TW: Mention of suicide and abuse

Lu Ming casually opened a letter, the ink of the handwriting was smudged, as if tears had hit it.

Now, rather than a letter, it was more like a thin diary.

“Chi Qiu:

Wishing you good luck as you open this letter.1展信佳: basically a greeting and blessing people use when writing letter

It has been a month since I came here.

The spring here is shorter than in China and the weather is a little hot.

And my mothers condition is getting worse and worse, often threatening me with suicide, she doent seem to like you very much.

But its okay, she must be too lonely and needs company.

When I stay with her and make her happy and healthy, I will be able to come back to you without any worries.

I hope you can forgive me for the delay.

Chi Qiu, as Im writing this letter, it is already night.

Im hiding under the covers and writing to you with a flashlight, isnt that a little romantic Haha, actually I dont want this kind of romance at all, I would prefer to sit next to you and talk to you.

You will surely comfort me.

By the way, it is very windy tonight.

I remembered that during the day when I went to the hospital to get my medicine, some kids passed by me with kites.

I wondered if the summer wind could carry kites too

I was curious.

Lets go fly a kite together when I return home.

Im sorry that my phone and computer are all broken by my mother so I cant contact you all the time.

Im also sorry that this is a letter that I cant send to you.

You probably never know that Im annoying you like this in my letters every day, right

I also dont want you to know that I have so many troubles either.

You are the most beautiful sun in spring, and I hope that happiness will always belong to you.

But I often miss you, miss you so much.

Today, I really want you to give me a hug.

If only I were that kite, I would cut its strings, and I could fly to you immediately without buying a plane ticket or waiting.

Lu Ming who wants to become a kite

May 17, 20xx”

 

The next one was opened by Lu Ming.

“Chi Qiu:

Wishing you good luck as you open this letter

Its been a month and a half since I came over here.

Im doing well, the bruises on my back kept coming back and I was constantly in pain.

My mom is always hitting me and I cant fight back.

I also have to keep an eye on her and not let her hurt herself.

Its so tiring, but shes sick and I have to understand her.

Chi Qiu, its okay, dont feel sorry for me, life is always about growing up.

Today, I want to talk to you about something happy.

I saw a stray dog on the road, and when it looked at me, I thought it looked especially like you, so I brought it home.

Dont get me wrong, Im not saying youre a puppy.

Its because it had beautiful eyes and I immediately thought of you.

Im looking forward to the day when Ill return to China.

If I can bring the puppy back, lets raise it together.

If I cant bring it back, I can only give it to a kind neighbor…

I named itGui Gui2桂 from 桂花(sweet-scented osmanthus).

Didnt you say you like osmanthus In the future, lets find a house with a yard to live in and Ill plant a very large osmanthus tree for you, so that Gui Gui can accompany you to enjoy the flowers.

I really hope that by that time, your eyes will have recovered so you can see how handsome I am, haha.

I guess I fit your type pretty well.

I swear, you will like me as much as I like you too.

However, if you dont like it, look at it a few more times and youll like it.

One has to focus on the beauty of the soul.

Okay, lets stop here.

Gui Gui is lying in the doorway barking, Ill go check on the little guy.

Good night.

Theres one more thing.

I dreamed about you last night.

In the dream, I kissed your forehead.

Im sorry, I said I would kiss you when youre 18… You grow up soon!

 

Lu Ming who is missing you, together with Gui Gui

July 2, 20xx”

 

 

The third letter, unexpectedly, the letter that Lu Ming drew dated very close to the previous letter.

“Chi Qiu:

Wishing you good luck as you open this letter

Gui Gui is missing, I searched for a long time, but I couldnt find it.

It was my mom who threw it away, she hates puppies.

I regret bringing Gui Gui home, if someone else had adopted him, he would have been so happy.

Sometimes I always wonder if I am always doing the wrong thing.

I hope Gui Gui will meet a good owner, not like me.

Just now, I had a fight with my mom.

I really dont know how to take care of her properly.

I tried to contact Grandpa and the others, but she was hysterical and it scared me.

I cant sleep every night and didnt dare to lock the door, for fear that she will suddenly die and that she will appear in front of my bed in the middle of the night.

Sometimes I wish she wasnt my mother, but I cant help it.

Im so tired.

Hug me, even in a dream.

Lu Ming who misses you,

August 9, 20xx”

 

The fourth letter was a letter dated September 9.

“Chi Qiu:

Wishing you good luck as you open this letter

Gui Gui was found and I gave him to my kind neighbors.

They welcomed this little guy as a new member of the family.

Im reluctant to let him go, but hopefully hell forget me.

Today, I had a showdown with her.

I said I would definitely go back to you.

But she wouldnt let me go.

She said that if I go back to you, she would die for me to see it.

She said if I go back to you, I would be the cause of her death.

She is obviously my mother, why did she turn out like this Does she hate me Am I doing something wrong, I dont know what Im doing wrong.

I dont look like my dad, not at all, so why does she hate me

Because of me, she has developed a huge hostility towards you, whom she has never met.

Chi Qiu, Im sorry for bringing these negative emotions to you who knew nothing about it, Im sorry, Im sorry.

Forgive me.

I am going to contact my grandfather and ask them to pick her up.

I hope she will recover after she leaves me.

I am afraid of her, but I also hope she will be healthy and live a long life.

Lu Ming

September 9, 20xx”

 

 

The fifth letter, dated September 10th, a week before Lu You was killed.

Tears dampened the few remaining words, and even the hand that wrote it was shaking, writing every word crookedly.

“Chi Qiu:

Wishing you good luck as you open this letter.

Miss you so much.

Lu Ming

September 10, 20xx”

 

Around six oclock that evening, the old woman delivered dinner.

She did not knock on the door as Lu Ming had instructed.

She used the spare key to open the door directly, wanting to put the dinner in the dining room.

As a result, once she entered the door, she saw that Lu Ming was still dressed the same way as when he came, even his suitcase was still placed at the door.

On the coffee table in front of the sofa, there was a pile of torn envelopes..

And the words and sentences that Lu Ming once wrote in those letters, all were read one by one by Lu Ming, and then sorted by time and stacked into a pile.

The last letter dated a week before Lu You died.

In those short days, Lu Ming didnt write a single letter, and no one knew what he suffered.

It was getting dark early in autumn, and Lu Ming forgot to turn on the lights.

Outside the window, there was no more daylight to give him the means to read the letter.

Fortunately, he had finished reading it.

He sat motionless, as if it was his instinct to freeze himself.

The old woman looked at him, wanting to speak, but at the end, she only put the dinner in the designated place and left the house silently.

She was a disciplined person and did not make a sound to disturb Lu Ming.

Lu Mings eyes were slightly warm, and he repeatedly felt the temperature of the letter paper in his hand.

Every word of every letter hung in his heart.

It turned out that he missed Chi Qiu so much and wanted to return to Chi Qius side so much.

But why, he who loved Chi Qiu so much had forgotten everything.

Lu Ming didnt have any appetite, but he still had to eat dinner.

He didnt know how long he would have to live here before he could get his old memories back.

So until then, he couldnt let the chaos of his life bring his body down first.

He turned on a light and sat down in front of the dining room before taking a few bites of the bacon sandwich the old woman had prepared.

But before he could swallow it, he got up in disgust and threw up.

A while ago, he drank so much that he almost ruined his stomach.

Now, the smell of bacon might not be suitable for him.

Lu Ming had to get up and go downstairs to buy a light meal in the commercial street across the street.

Walking along the road, he saw some foreign kids walking past carrying a kite.

The taller kid shouted: “Meet at the park tomorrow!” When he passed by Lu Ming, the corner of the kite touched Lu Mings arm.

He turned around and apologized to Lu Ming, “Im sorry.”

Lu Ming looked at the kite in the childs hand and thought about how he was going to become a kite, and was slightly lost in thought.

Then he asked the child, “How high can your kite fly”

The child proudly said: “Very high!”

Lu Mings expression was stiff and his cold face was very unpopular among the children.

He asked seriously, “Does it fly far”

The child looked at him strangely: “If youre so curious, why dont you buy one and try it yourself”

The children dispersed in a hurry, but Lu Ming really went to a store and bought a small kite.

He seemed to be apsycho; in the middle of the night, he took the kite by the string and ran for a long time in the open field.

The light from the street lamp was so far away that his kite could not fly and crashed on the dark grass.

Lu Ming was a little disappointed.

It turned out that the kite couldnt fly to Chi Qius side.

He turned around.

In a trance he saw his seventeen-year-old self looking up at the sky, as if he was about to turn into a kite and fly away.

After a long while, Lu Ming sat on a bench in the park, looking at the starless night sky.

It might be a rainy day tomorrow.

It seemed that the childrens promise to fly kites couldnt be fulfilled.

He should go back to sleep too.

When he arrivedhome, Lu Ming hung the kite on the wall.

He squatted down and took the lead in tidying up his suitcase.

He did not open Lu Yous room, but went straight to the other bedroom, the room where he had lived in for a few months.

The furnishings inside were simple.

The drawer still had a flashlight that he used before, a stack of yellowed blank letter paper, and a box of ballpoint pens whose inks were about to run out.

Lu Ming took out his pajamas and went to the bathroom to wash up briefly.

For some reason, as soon as Lu Ming stepped into this bathroom, he smelled the smell of blood.

He raised his head dully and looked around.

The white and clean walls, as if newly painted, did not have any trace of scars.

The scars were in his heart; he guessed that the smell of blood in his body was clouding his judgment.

There was a voice in his subconscious urging him to leave this bathroom.

He fought back his discomfort and took a quick shower.

As he looked into the mirror, the wall behind him suddenly became red.

He turned around in horror but the wall was still white.

His head jerked and the pain seemed to be a lightning bolt crossing.

In the small space, Lu Mings hands and feet were numb.

He saw Lu You again, she was dressed in white, her face was like a jasmine flower in blood, beautiful and pure.

She was nailed to the wall, sleeping forever.

Lu Ming almost lost his voice as he opened the bathroom door.

He didnt look back, but the familiar feeling wrapped around him, suppressing and suffocating to torment him endlessly.

It turned out that all the years of fear were hidden in this bathroom.

Lu Ming didnt dare to look back.

He swallowed a mouthful of saliva as his legs were weak.

After stumbling a step, he knelt directly on the ground making his knees hurt.

He looked up and heard a “tick-tock-tick-tock” sound.

The sound was from the clock on the wall in the living room and it seemed to hypnotize Lu Mings nerves.

——Old places, old things, old memories.

Back then, in this living room, the clock hands kept going the same way.

Lu You stood in front of the window, quietly looking at the rain outside, not saying anything to Lu Ming.

The heavier it rained, the colder Lu Yous heart became.

She was incredibly thin, and her beautiful facial features were deeply sunken, like a rose that was about to wither.

But even after being destroyed, it was still beautiful.

“Xiao Ming, do you really want to leave me”

Behind her, seventeen-year-old Lu Ming stood in place with his head bowed, clutching the corners of his clothes with both hands.

He shivered as tears blurred his vision.

“Yes.” Lu Mings tears fell.

He was also very thin and haggard.

He couldnt see Lu Yous face clearly: “Mom, dont torture me, please.”

 

The author has something to say:

Lu Ming will remember it tomorrow!

 

1展信佳: basically a greeting and blessing people use when writing letter2桂 from 桂花(sweet-scented osmanthus)-

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